read the title foo'. UNDER CONSTRUCTION.

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i cut my hair. so much for my life.

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i've got this new job that i really like. my cousin bought over a drink stall in Ayer Rajer Hawker Center, West Coast. he needed help and i needed a job and everything else fell into place. i started my first day of work on thursday, and it has opened my eyes to so much....happenings in this Godforsaken world. on my first day on the job, there were already so many hawker center politics introduced to me that i went dizzy with shock. we were only allowed to serve to specific ten tables and if we ventured further from what we already own, other drink stalls can come and fight with us and complain us to the chairman. okay...i absorbed that rather quickly. and then before i knew it, there was shouting and fighting at about 10 in the morning. apparently the cleaner might have broken a plate or something, and the char kway teow cook was being scolded by the boss and the boss in turn shouted at the cleaner and there was like....almost some fight. whatever. so the day progressed and i learnt how to make sugar cane juice, talk in hokkien and to brush up my Godforsaken chinese. and then when the hour was approaching 2pm, this really fat ahbeng dude went stall to stall collecting 8 bucks. the first thing that hit me like a brick was that stalls were paying this char kway teow stall owners protection money because they looked so big sized and ahbengish...and the boss of that stall almost beat up a helpless cleaner. when i asked my cousin why they collected 8 bucks everyday, he told me that they were collecting "money for collecting plates". it didnt make head or tail sense to me but i had to go "orhhhhhhhhhh". i bet it was some kinda gang protection money and stuff. whatever. so on the second day of work, friday, yesterday, two indian stalls were quarrelling early in the morning about 9am. it just amazes me how the most boring places could hold some of the worlds greatest eye candy. but friday nothing much happened. as i was going home i met up with "Ah Gu", the cleaner who was almost plummeted by that fat fat. (i hope you're still following me in this little story of mine..) but he's the life of the whole hawker center. he's never serious and always never serious. he always fools around with everyone...and maybe thats the thing that gets him into trouble....(like me sometimes..ha). but we sat in the bus stop together and i talked to him in chinese while i desperately tried to pick out farmiliar hokkien words he was machine-gunning at me. today's work at the hawker center was busy busy with lots of drink orders and it was all good. and i met our next door stalls daughter and son. Cheryl and Andy. now they were a breath of fresh air. they constantly bombarded me with punches and slaps on my butt and blocking my path that it was sooo fun to toy around with them. and i'm serious about thte touching my butt part...Cheryl kept doing that. and just to dawn a revelation on you, Cheryl's 7 and Andy's 4. haha. so no hot butt touching action as you might want to think it would be. but it was good. i'm currently loving my job so much i wanna work there forever. the whole hawker center atmosphere is so fun and carefree....LAGI SHIOK! and this is a piece of trash from me that i've departed to you. Peace Out~

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i was looking through my old photos today and...so many memories flooded back into this idle mind of mine. past happiness. past sadness. past success. past failures. past memories. only memories. but as i remembered each story behind the photo like as if it only happened yesterday, yestermonth, yesteryear, i have this memories to thank for who i am today. only these memories that i went through moulded me and made me into the person, into the man that i am today. so you (yes you....you whoever's reading my entry right now!) will have the honour of taking a peek into my oh-so-not perfect life. and the only reason why i'm typing so much today is because i'm friggin bored!


this was my first crush. we almost got hitched but something in me said it wasnt time yet. i let God provide me with The One for my life.


this was a picture taken about 3 years back in 2002. we were young and naive then. but 2 people in the group has fallen from contact and their presence has since faded from our memories.


my cellgroup had a chalet and we were having like some games and stuff. and my team was the only team that managed to build a raft that could hold a big stone on it. HAHA. those times.....happy times.



this photo was taken when we were on the beach and it was gonna rain soon. so Jaslin was struck with a bolt of creativity and this picture was taken. its so awesome! thats Jaslin and Jeremy's hand in there. man this picture is so darn beautiful!



this picture was of our old cellgroup, W101. alot of faces have yet remained till now and also alot of faces have faded from the picture and from our lives.


this beautiful girl beside was my first love, first girlfriend i ever had, but sadly it didnt last long. i guess my flesh wanted my way but God still had a plan ahead of me but i wanted my way. she's my first girlfriend....and the next time i'm every going to get attached would be after army. nothing hurts like love. to all those people out there who has never given their love away, keep it that way. dont give something away only to regret later. but i've moved on and i'm not the same. thank you Mei Luan. for all the shit you put me through and for everything you've done to me, into this monster, if not for you i wouldnt be the person i am today. thank you.



this shot was taken in 2004. my classmates and me were walking to our friends house, and we looked jsut like one big gang. haha. and just for the record, Kee Siong has one big sexy butt!


this picture was taken at my place. me and Hui Maan really looked so pretty and handsome. and i mean pretty and handsome.


Timothy looks so happy.....and i wonder why is that so.


call me spider man because.......just call me spider man!


this picture was taken at my place. me and Ida really looked so pretty and handsome. and i mean pretty and handsome.


i guess my face looked tempting enough for people to smack. oh well..


i guess Timothy was still very happy...and...i was...erm...angry i guess? haha. the last 6 photos were taken at my class barbeque at my house.

well i've showed you ( yes you....you still reading my entry.) the past 4 years of my life. although it isnt a complete day to day portfolio of me, all this pictures is enough to show how much of a not-so-perfect person i am. i am human, so are you. the past is filled with happy moments in my life, and also terrible hurts that hardened my heart. i just wanna tell you that you cannot erase or forget your past, but you can let go of whatever and look towards the future. yes it is the past which determines who you are, but its the future that determines your life to come. i've typed enough for today. live life....live. this is sheng, signing out. peace out!

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you know, ever since that day i went for the Aids Awareness gig, something hit me like a ton of bricks. a realization. why care about anything anymore? and i totally agree on that thought. i mean, why care about little things that tick us off? why care about things that make us angry? why care about hating? it would waste so much time and waste so much of our life just hating each other and caring about the world. things that are temporary will eventually die along with our bodies. but things that are eternal will never die. so i'm making a statement right now, I DONT GIVE A HOOT ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE. i live for God and myself. i'm carefree. little things shant bother me anymore because i simply couldnt give a damn anymore seriously. i dont care. i couldnt care. i couldnt care less.

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